My first email address ever was hosted at

I was young and had just decided liking anime and Japanese video games were a core element of my identity. This was reflected by the two elements of my email address: the name of my favorite character in a recent movie I watched, and a simplistic translation of “angel” to Japanese, courtesy of a local magazine about anime.

Over the years, I would shed and create email addresses as my life had different requirements or other elements were incorporated to the messy thing that is my perception of myself. A Tolkien reference (ok… THREE Tolkien references) here, a metal (the music genre) reference there, and so on, plus some experimentation in different email services until I got to where I am now.

I eventually closed most of my unused or obsolete accounts, but to date I still have two addresses hosted at hotmail. I don’t use them much, as 99% of my emailing is done from an account hosted somewhere else, but part of me refuses to let go of one in particular. There are two reasons for it:

The first one is that if you were to remove the layers of professionalism, composure, seriousness, and conventional adulthood from my person, you would be left with that alias. The address (created at age 16) is still so much in resonance with me it makes me both proud and scared to realize that I pretty much knew who I was at that age, and managed to summarize it in my three-words-one-number address. I like it too much to get rid of it. I dream of a time when I am 80 years old and I email my grandchildren from that address.

The second one is counterintuitive, because it is the main reason so many people complain about hotmail in the first place: Spam email.

I went through all the stages of receiving spam email, from naïvety to frustration to tiredness. When the filters got good enough that it would not show up on my inbox but rather my Spam folder, I calmed down, then took a “let them come” approach. Just delete them in a bulk whenever I remember to check.

Until recently. The subject lines have gotten so good I have to consciously fight the urge to open them. Let me show you an example from the actual folder:

Spam mail
One word: Impurities.

How can anyone resist this?!

Any day that “pedestrians”, “disapprove”, and “virginity” show up in the same context as missed messages is a good one.

I just wish the content was not merely a link and that I could actually reply to them.

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